Sometimes life is horrible

Well a lot of messed up crap happened all at once.

First problem is that my mother board is fried or something is wrong with it that it only brings up the loading screen. And by loading screen I mean the screen that the people who made the mother board made. So I know something is wrong. I attempted to try and fix it but it won't even let me off that screen even though it says that I can press F2 to continue or F12 (I'm not sure if those are the correct keys) but for sure I can't do a damn thing about it since my knowledge about computers is limited.

Second while my cosplay is about 90% done came home to see my prop collapse in on itself. I couldn't salvage anything. And I have been working on it so very hard that it makes me sad that in just one fell swoop I had to toss everything into the trash.

Since some of the pieces were lighter and everything it was just a bad set up when I did the fast mache on the prop that it really just collapsed in on itself.

I did learn though that I most likely will be making nothing with mache anymore if I can help it. And that I have to plan ahead months in advance when making a prop instead of doing it last minute. I will try again to make Ruby's scythe; Crescent Rose. But this time I will make sure that I use the correct materials and work with either wonderflex or worbla.

The computer thing is the most upsetting though to be honest, since all my music was on my laptop and I don't want to buy it again since I never backed up any of the information or anything.

Just a crap day just before Sakura-con

Oh and one last crap note;

There were only 25 tickets for the tea party event. I didn't get one, in fact a lot of people didn't but that's natural seeing as there was only 25 tickets and how many people like lolita in the city alone. Also tickets aren't transferable, so if you can't go, the spot won't be filled.

Yeah..........Just a great time......

So close to Sakuracon

So Sakuracon is close at hand. Which is kind of sad and yet so very exciting.

What I am excited and sad for is Angelic Pretty. I don't think I will have enough money to buy anything substantial from their shop since it's only two more paychecks till con. But then last year I didn't find anything I really wanted so that was kind of a loss for me, so who knows what will happen at this one.

If there's another tea party I will probably go again, but this time I won't be expecting much since AX's one was super lame, and it seems par for the course for brand tea parties (that are held within the convention center).

But I cannot wait for the fashion show that will happen.

Last years fashion show at Sakuracon took so long to get started but then burned out quickly their time wasn't even up before they were finished.

Anyway I have to figure out what things I wanna wear for the con aside from my cosplay.

I want to wear this but I don't have an ivory or a brown blouse to wear with it. I mean I have my new blouse from meta that I haven't worn yet. It may be a bit weird wearing white with ivory but it may be my best chances as of right now to have something new to wear at the con.

I mean while all my other stuff is nice. The rest of my pieces are relatively older AP and Baby items that I've had over the years.

Whatever turns out to be the case I'm just going to try to have more fun and try to be less of a wallflower than other times.

Countdown to Sakuracon

We've almost got about a month left before Sakura-con and I feel as if I am not ready for it.

To be honest my cosplay isn't finished yet, and it's starting to get in crunch mode. I haven't finished Ruby's scythe and accessories yet. But all I have of the main piece left is a second belt and her cape. So that's way better than I thought.

I will continue to work on my scythe though I am a bit disappointed I don't have the budget to make my scythe out of wonderflex. So instead I'm making it out of different paper maches. It will probably look ok in pictures but in real life probably not the best. I'll definitely have to fix it up for the next time I work on the costume.

Though to be honest I am excited that they announced that Range Murata is going to be at the con. I've always loved his art and found it very soft and interesting.

I may post up progress pics here for the prop but I'm not so sure...

More Sewing Fun

So there's going to be more sewing fun tomorrow. I'm going to finish up my skirt that I made 100% all by myself. Hopefully assembled it won't look like a hot mess like it does in pieces. Seriously, I seem to not be able to cut without help.

Also I have a lot of the fabric left so mom is going to actively help me make a matching vest for it since the fabric is more pop like. When she told me that she'd help I said; "is that so?" And was reminded of Kill la Kill because...Talking clothing, sewing, fighting the power of clothes, friendship with clothes, controlling the world with clothes... You know, Trigger saving anime.

Satsuki wants to know is that so...

Anyway besides sewing my mom is going to be helping with my Ruby Rose cosplay tomorrow. More importantly we're going to be making a petticoat akin to what classical puppets sells. But she's going to be using the serger and she's going to teach me how.

Mako looking at Sensei's needles

Honestly though, the serger looks intimidating, and I thought my mom didn't know how to use it, because all I've ever seen was my aunt borrow it from us to make her scrubs... But she does know how, which is good, because I need all the help I can get taming that beast. Anyway I hope to have progress and completion pictures up, since these are going to be interesting none the less.

I honestly have no idea if I'm going to just post the images up here or also to tumblr. May do both. I should probably though at one point link my tumblr and blog together.

Though honestly I just post simple images on tumblr, here is where I get to talk.

I'm finally going to cosplay.... And I'm really scared

Well as Sakuracon draws closer my friends (the two who I saw Rebellion with) are talking about what they're going to cosplay as. And they asked me what was I going to dress up as, and I told them nothing because I'm too afraid to cosplay.

Of course they asked why and I told them the truth of what I felt; that I was too ugly and fat to cosplay. My friends couldn't believe that I would say that about myself but they saw how genuine I believe the words to be.

They told me about how much fun they have at cons when they dress up and that it doesn't have to be anything serious as sometimes they go in casual cosplay like homestuck or MLP:FIM characters. They really encouraged me to try cosplay as they said they'd be there to support me.

When I look back on it, it seems a bit funny that my friends who are a few years younger than me, had to encourage me to try cosplaying. But without them I don't think I'd ever try.

Well enough about that part, onto what I've decided to cosplay as.

I'm actually going as two characters from the Madoka Movie:Rebellion

Nagisa Momoe and Bebe

I wanted to pick something that was relatively easy and of characters I liked. These two are super adorable, and I already got some help for BeBe's wig and will be ordering the pieces to put it together soon. And funny enough one of my friends is cosplaying Mami as well, which means there will be two magical girls at least.

My mom even wants me to cosplay something else as well. We watched the first season of RWBY together and she wants me to cosplay Ruby Rose

Ruby Rose

I do like the character but out of all the characters my mom suggested Ruby is the only one I'd feel comfortable doing. Mom suggested me to dress up as Yang or Pyrrha which didn't set so well for me. Though I had an interesting time explaining to my mom just exactly what a scythe was to her.

I think for me the most fun would be in constructed the Crescent Rose scythe as I always loved making sculptures and helping out making props for people.

Looks like the next couple of months I will be super busy for the con, hopefully though all the hard work I will be doing won't be wasted.

I'm still nervous about this whole cosplaying ordeal, but I also am excited. As time goes on I hope the nervousness and doubt goes away.